Measuring up…

You Say- Lauren Daigle

Funny story … okay it’s not so funny.

I have had the most bizarre week which has tested me in every way possible and I have struggled literally to keep it together.

Bizarre because I sat drinking bubble tea in front of this sign by a bridge and feeling like everything was coming undone.

Funny because the sign spells ‘Cage’ and that’s how I felt at that moment caged.

Like I could no longer speak my mind or walk ahead without being watched or judged of my every move.

I truly felt like I was looking for words or signs to connect to and the irony to only be sat at a random place reading random shit!

Anyways 2 days later this song plays at the most obscure coffee shop in the most unexpected location in Hong Kong.

I was like why does she sound like Adele? And then we asked the coffee shop lady who was singing and she gave us the name.

I got back to work and when I heard the song and it truly was what I wanted to hear.

You know when the slightest thing sets you off….. tiniest thing to completely break you open…..this was just enough for the me to sit there and let the tears flow , not wanting them to stop.

I just needed to be reminded that I am not a caged bird – that I can fly if I wanted to. No one can tell me otherwise.

I am made in his likeness and I am not going to be abandoned.

I might have forgotten my self-worth but I am in the making and I will be who I am meant to be.

I am enough and I am going to reassure myself that I will come out of this blackness with nothing but faith in my heart.

I will not be overwhelmed by my weakness and will not confine myself to the patterns of this world.

I am who I am and I might break, I might cry more than I should but I will not sit down and let the nothingness take over me.

I will conquer my fears and I will move forward.

I may not have much… but I have me, an original in his plan.

I am no longer going to wait to hear words of affirmation from anyone because from the depths of my soul I know – I WILL BE ENOUGH.