There are times when I surprise myself….
and I cannot control what goes through my head…..
Life for Rent- Dido
“I haven’t really ever found a place that I call home….I never stick around quite long enough to make it…”
I find myself running all the time…. I have no idea from what…. Sometimes it stares at me….and I convince myself not to reach out and grab it….
“If My life is for rent….and I don’t learn to buy….
well I deserve nothing more than I get…
cause nothing I own is truly mine…..”
I cannot put my finger on it….. all of my life I have a picture that I think is perfect…..perfect for me…….. but is it?
For once I do not know what I want….. I knew it all along….and now I don’t
“I always thought I’d love to live by the sea…… to travel the world alone….and live life more simply…..I have no idea what’s happening to that dream …..as there is really nothing that is left here to stop me”
What stops me? ME….. like they say I am my worst enemy….. Have I exiled myself? yes…. Have I stopped myself? yes…. Why? I don’t think I can ever explain…
“While my heart is a shield and I won’t let it down……” it is not about putting a guard up…. it is about being stubborn….it is about wanting to control what happens so there are no surprises good or bad….. all these preconceived notions that poison what can be conceived….
“While I am so afraid to fail so I won’t even try” can you blame me?
Because nothing I have is truly mine……
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