Do without..

I was going to write today why I hate the Lion king and why I have sworn never to watch Bambi ever again….

Seemed like such a childish thing to write about….

Thank you Disney for scarring me for Life….

I don’t think I will ever forgive you for killing Mufasa  or Bambi’s mother……now my hands tremble when I walk by the video store and I see cut outs of the Lion king…..Oh how could you?

Thanks to you I never did complete my Bambi coloring book which was drenched half the time with a certain 5 year old tears….Damn you Disney! Damn you!

The Loneliness ~ Babyface

But The Lion King reminds me of a special detail of my childhood….

It reminds me of a little boy I used to know…

The boy who owned The lion king movie….I used to think he was so much like Simba…..royal and a little sad…..

I remember he went through a phase of eating with his left hand…..He loved the The Adams Family….while I loathed Wednesday….He was always so bright-eyed and ready for school, while I hated waking up at dawn and the fact we had to wear a uniform,,

He was barely 11 while he walked around like he was 20, and I was secretly so proud of him as my friend…..he was always gentle to animals and loved his fishes…. a clown who made Sophie and me laugh all the time….he always spoke to us and treated us if we were Princesses…..

His eyes had a secret….that I thought only I could see…….a secret that he never did tell me…..

I don’t remember how we first met…..but I know we will never forget him….because I know our childhood would have never been the same without him….

“So tell me how you feel
Are you for real ?”

Falling Star…

Sorry I had a momentary lapse of memory….

Past couple of days……when I was acting as if I was 16 again……like a little puppy……I had forgotten…..

Momentarily….only momentarily…

How Could an Angel Break My Heart ~ Toni Braxton Feat Babyface

Yes yes call me whatever you like…..

I paid the price….and I saw the scars…..

“I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine “

I have nothing to say in my defense your honour, I am guilty as charged….

It was I, I who opened Pandora’s cursed box and let the beast out….

“I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name”

The wiser part of my brain had left the building….

I was a fool for wanting it all back…..even if it was just for a moment…..

Forgive me sir, I had forgotten I had missed my train…..

“I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn’t make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me”

You were right, I had no right…..

I had no right to go calling on the heartbreak lane that night….

“How could an angel break my heart
Why didn’t he catch my falling star
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart”