Do without..

I was going to write today why I hate the Lion king and why I have sworn never to watch Bambi ever again….

Seemed like such a childish thing to write about….

Thank you Disney for scarring me for Life….

I don’t think I will ever forgive you for killing Mufasa  or Bambi’s mother……now my hands tremble when I walk by the video store and I see cut outs of the Lion king…..Oh how could you?

Thanks to you I never did complete my Bambi coloring book which was drenched half the time with a certain 5 year old tears….Damn you Disney! Damn you!

The Loneliness ~ Babyface

But The Lion King reminds me of a special detail of my childhood….

It reminds me of a little boy I used to know…

The boy who owned The lion king movie….I used to think he was so much like Simba…..royal and a little sad…..

I remember he went through a phase of eating with his left hand…..He loved the The Adams Family….while I loathed Wednesday….He was always so bright-eyed and ready for school, while I hated waking up at dawn and the fact we had to wear a uniform,,

He was barely 11 while he walked around like he was 20, and I was secretly so proud of him as my friend…..he was always gentle to animals and loved his fishes…. a clown who made Sophie and me laugh all the time….he always spoke to us and treated us if we were Princesses…..

His eyes had a secret….that I thought only I could see…….a secret that he never did tell me…..

I don’t remember how we first met…..but I know we will never forget him….because I know our childhood would have never been the same without him….

“So tell me how you feel
Are you for real ?”

Lord Knows….

Fractured Life……

Smile for me now....
Smile for me now....

I miss my baby sister….

I wonder if she will ever forgive me for missing out on her life so much…..

We were comrades ……I hope we still are…

She is everything I am not…….

But we are like two different beats of the same song….

Just the same but somehow different…….

Aicha ~ Outlandish

“So sweet, so beautiful
Everyday like a queen on her throne
Don’t nobody knows how she feels
Aicha, Lady one day it will be real”

I have beautiful memories of her in my childhood…..

We could claw each others eyes out…..

And cry holding each other at the same time…..

She is what I call a lifeline…..

And she knows me all too well….

Lord knows the way she feels
Everyday in his name she begins
To have her shining right here by my side
I’d sacrifice all them tears in my eyes”

All the secrets we shared….

The laughter and the tears….

It was always us against the world……..

“She needs somebody to lean on
Someone body, mind & soul
To take her hand, to take her world
And show her the time of her life, so true
Throw the pain away for good”