I remember discussing funeral songs one day with my colleagues…it was one of those strange conversations which crop up once in a while…….a song played at a funeral…one of my colleagues wanted It’s getting hot in here (Nelly) played while being cremated……. we laughed soo hard …I thought it was hillarious………I remember I wanted “King of Sorrow” played at mine….. it wasn’t a funny choice but the funny part was that- I was damn serious about it………
Jokes apart……If I had to pick a song…….that one track which would define my life……. the one and only official “Soundtrack of my life”…..probably the most played song on my playlist till date…..
King of Sorrow ~ Sade
No idea why this song…I could never give a reason….but it just feels right………
“I’m crying everyone’s tears
And there inside our private war”
I don’t think you need to be clinically depressed to love this song to bits…….love Sade……love her dreamy voice….. she sings and I feel unburdened…….like a lullaby…….and I drift away……
“And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do?”
What do you do when cares are pressing you down?
“I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all”
Probably the truest words ever written (or sung in this case)……
Soup……ah soup…….I wish I could cook a soup that could warm people’s soul…….people I care about the most……
But yet she says…..nothing would change…nothing would change at all…….the truth is……you cannot carry people’s burden for them no matter how much you wish you could…….. the bitter truth is – we all carry our own crosses…….maybe we could be someone’s Simon once in a while and share the burden of their cross momentarily……but end of the day…..you carry your own………you gotto carry your own ….
“I have so much to do
I have to carry on”
When you feel yourself crumbling under the weight……there is nothing you can do……but carry on…….
“I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay” ????
Yes you can give it up……Yes you can throw it all away in a second……and walk away from it all…..
I should know better…..I should know what it feels like, being a disappointment…….but the worst you can do is be a disappointment to yourself……..
“I’m crying everyone’s tears
I have already paid for all my future sins”
and you pay……you pay with your dreams……you pay with your time……and you pay in all possible ways that you possibly can………
“There’s nothing anyone
Can say to take this away “
Nothing…………..not a word……
“I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king”
Ever?……ever is a scary word…..scarier than never….
“It’s just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing’s any good”
What is a good day? as opposed to a bad day?
I do not know…….
“I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go” ????
Missing Soundtrack 