Beautiful Disaster

Beautiful Disaster~ Jon McLaughlin

I like living a low profile life…..I am comfortable with being under the radar all the time – everytime….I can see how that can bother people or worse make them uncomfortable…….I don’t blame them…..but I am not looking to change or be changed…..

Nope sorry! No can do…..

Sometimes my head wants to scream out…..”Don’t try and fix me, I am not yours to be fixed”……other times I just cannot be bothered to remind people who never  forget to remind me …..That I am who I am and am not sorry for being this way……Sorry but I have no qualms with being  happy in my very skin….

“She swears that there’s no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It’s all the same if everybody leaves her.

Like that movie in which the girl always dreams about spiral staircases and ends up building one with a pack of cards…..Only I feel like I am on a never- ending spiral staircase and it really does not matter which way I go,  up or down…..It just keeps going on and on……….no one gets it….and trust me it does not help when I am trying with all my might to get people to understand …….I feel like I am fighting for a lost cause here……

“She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she’ll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection. “

Am I being too honest?  probably!

Angry? not so much!

Bothered? No not at all!

Rubbed me the wrong way? Oh so so much!

I am NOT and I repeat I am NOT somebody’s consolation prize…….

“Cuz she’s just the way she is, but no ones told her that’s ok”