I just realised its been 4 months since I finished a book…..

That is so unlike me…..

I start a book and let it go half way……

I remember my mum screaming at me all the time for bringing my book to the dinner table…..

This is not about finding the time…..

I don’t know what this is about….

And I fear to find out exactly what or why?…..

All Time Love ~ Will Young

Anxiety ……

Good or Bad?

“Sometimes you walk by the good ones
‘Cos you’re trying to hard, too hard to see them
And sometimes you don’t find the right lines
‘Cos you’re trying too hard, too hard to hear them”
It’s starvation of this mortal soul……

Like losing your way in a maze…

Facing your internal demons….

I am searching for the faith I fail to find in myself….

Failure frightens the day light out of me….

“Let go”…..I scream…..

“Some days you’re too set in your ways
And you forget to shut up, shut up and listen
And some days you just have to misplace all your mistakes
Somewhere that you won’t miss them
So stop lying that you’re fine”

I fail to see my purpose…..

The Purpose of being….

My internal voice lost in the humdrum of untouched lives….

“I don’t believe that it’s a failing
I don’t believe that it’s a fault
‘Cos if everything were plain sailing
Oh tell me what would there be left to exalt”

Lost just to be found….

Break just to be fixed,,,,,

Breathe just to be alive….

Hold on just to let go…..

” ‘Cause you’re like me
And you won’t give up”

Believe…..

“Till an all time love
‘Cause nothing else is good enough
I want an all time love
To find me…”