Turning Inside Out..

I sat at a clinic today and while speaking to an older lady, I asked her if the assessment was a long process as I had to get back to work and she very kindly replied that she has been here before and we could be there for a good hour or two. In turn she asked me if I had a “Heart Machine” ? (I guess that’s what you young folks call it these days huh?) , I sort of gathered she must be speaking about a pace maker, I smiled and said “No, mam I don’t”, I smiled at the irony of the situation……Bless her…..For the reminder of the time I sat there loving the idea of a Heart Machine…….How awesome does that sound? I sat there smiling like a fool, “Oh I would love some heart machine if you please”…….

Why~ Annie Lennox

Yes I would like a heart machine……coz the  human one I got kinda sucks in making efficient decisions…..wouldnt it be lovely to have decisions made for you? Your heart machine could potentially be programmed to make the most logical choices instead of ruining the reputation of you brain by influencing  it otherwise….

“I may be mad
I may be blind
I may be viciously unkind
But I can still read what you’re thinking”

I am soo funny aren’t I? (No wait you aren’t supposed to answer that….The question was rhetorical)

Hmm,

Shucks I just lost my flow of thoughts….(told you I was funny….atleast funny enough to distract myself)

Mental block? (Plunge it! Ha ha ha)

“This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I’ll never tread
These are the dreams I’ll dream instead
This is the joy that’s seldom spread”

Alright the randomness needs to go……

What the hell am I writing? (I don’t know, but who cares?)

Maybe one day I will have a funny story to say…but for now we will have to work with the substitutes of funny….

“This is the fear
This is the dread
These are the contents of my head”

I make the most coldest jokes when I am nervous (kinda like what I am doing right now? Don’t answer that!…oh no go ahead answer that)…the kind that never makes people laugh but never fails to make them go “What the….is she on?”

“And these are the years that we have spent
And this is what they represent
And this is how I feel
Do you know how I feel ?
’cause I don’t think you know how I feel
I don’t think you know what I feel
I don’t think you know what I feel
You don’t know what I feel “

Empty Shores…

Center Of Attention ~ Jackson Waters

“You want your independence
But you wont let me let you go
You wanna test the waters
And leave it on the empty shores”

Sometimes I miss the sound of thunder..

I stayed wide awake in the eerie hours of the morning..

I remembered a story I heard from my grandma

Vaguely..

About this little boy who discovered a hole in a dam and how he stayed up all night trying to stop the water…

They found him dead the next morning…

Later they discovered he had saved the town…

He was a hero…

I don’t remember my reaction…

It was a sad story.,

Reminds me of the little match girl in many ways….

I miss the sound of thunder….

I miss a home that seems just too far today….

Being brave does not mean you are without fear…..

It means you did not let fear stop you….


Slightest bit confused?

Welcome to the momentary memory loss program…

Stay Away ~ The Honorary Title

What do I NOT like about this song? Nothing….

Far Less Obvious
Far less obvious?

Sometimes it is hard not to let your hidden evil side win…..

“No, I can’t dance less it’s slow or sad
To a song that’s far less obvious
If you’re using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go”

But what you cannot do is destroy everything that stands in front of you while you struggle with the Good and the EVIL!

(PREACH!)

Stay away from me, stay away from me… now”

Obvious? Me?

(MAD, Much?)

Right! I don’t know much……but I know enough when to cut my losses and move on……(you think?!!)

Just when you think you know everything?

“No, I can’t dance ‘less it’s slow or sad (did you notice?)
To a song that’s far less obvious (did you notice?)
If your using me, do it slowly (did you notice?)
Make it last until I have to go (did you notice that i…?)”

Notice Much?