Displaced..

Got a lot of things to say picking up at the middle is more appropriate than the beginning. Things ought to be in their place, even memories whilst we are on the topic of picking up where we left off, how do you pick up a life hastily abandoned years ago?

Million Faces~ Paolo Nutini

You know the story of the frog that sat in a well and wished to see the stars shining up in the dark brooding skies? Well it went something like this…so the frog finally got out of the well and to this new exciting outside world spite of the froggy peers advise about the big bad world.  Lets fast forward a couple of frog years , so Mr. Learned Frog returns to the well (Don’t ask me why) all learned sans the “Worldly Wise” attitude, hoping to slip back to normalcy knowing all that he knew, and seeing all that he had seen. I cannot remember for the life of me how the story ended, but normal in Mr. Frog’s life was quite underrated, yes you heard me right, I said underrated He was wise but not wise enough to know Normal was not what he would get when he did get back. You see the problem was this – Mr. Frog had a heart that belonged in the well, but a mind that had aged beyond his years.. Slowing down was not his problem, it was the falling behind. Anyways I might suck at storytelling, but I hope you get the gist. I have no moral of the story,  nor a quirky clever sign off, but if I must end I say this “Oh how we chase the past…..and yet soo afraid to find it breathing down the neck all but to tie a noose”

Until next time….

Oh a million faces pass my way
Oh they’re all the same, nothing seem to change anytime I look around ,Oh who knows just what the future holds”

Empty Shores…

Center Of Attention ~ Jackson Waters

“You want your independence
But you wont let me let you go
You wanna test the waters
And leave it on the empty shores”

Sometimes I miss the sound of thunder..

I stayed wide awake in the eerie hours of the morning..

I remembered a story I heard from my grandma

Vaguely..

About this little boy who discovered a hole in a dam and how he stayed up all night trying to stop the water…

They found him dead the next morning…

Later they discovered he had saved the town…

He was a hero…

I don’t remember my reaction…

It was a sad story.,

Reminds me of the little match girl in many ways….

I miss the sound of thunder….

I miss a home that seems just too far today….

Being brave does not mean you are without fear…..

It means you did not let fear stop you….


The Big Picture……

Attention to detail…… people keep throwing these words around…… does my head in…….

I am a completer finisher I should know what an obsession detail can be sometimes………

Just finished watching Good will hunting…….. lost count how many times I have watched that film…..and it still has the ability to blow my mind without fail……..Not to mention the huge crush I had on Matt Damon for years.

Genius….. Every bit of it…… from story to screenplay….Dialougues …… It is hard to imagine what inspired Matt and Ben to write the film….. For a commoner like me….whose writing abilities which fall just below standard and an imagination that is truly mediocre Ehem lets not even go to grammar…..cause the grammar police are out to get me……… These guys hit a gold mine……

Well anyways where was I – attention to detail and the bigger picture………

In world where the goal post is moved ever soo often it is hard to catch up….especially for a reflector like me….. It takes a bit more than the usual time to process things…..

I wish I was razor-sharp and pretty clued up on all the requisites……

Duck! Quickly!

Song Song Song…….find a Song……

Apologies ~ Grace Potter & The Nocturnals

“Yesterday he said my eyes
Were fading fast away
I said well what do you expect”

I find it hard to convince people…..to make them see the disaster waiting to strike down the road ahead like I do….

Be more assertive, a voice screams in my head……

Be more assertive….. Tell people what you really think…..

Tell people what you think…..

“Yesterday he looked at me
With a tear in his eye and said,
“I’ll always tell you you’re my friend
I hope I don’t have to lie
Cause it’s clear you love another man”
And I said, “You’re damn right”

An alarm button goes off in my head…….. It is like an intuition about something bad waiting to happen…… and I hit the brakes….every single time…..it is not about feasibility…… it is not about the ability…  It is about knowing myself too well…… knowing the fit all to well….

I am a reflector…..I am a complete finisher why? because that is who I am…..

And who I am has everything to do with the choices I make…….

“Cause I don’t wanna fight this war”