Broken Poetry..

Our Battles ~Maria Mena

Not tied down..

Insolence leaves me no choice…

contemptuous feelings fill my eyes half full…..

“Our battles are repetitious
if not broken poetry
and maybe that’s the attraction
that you’re as self-absorbed as me”

Fruitful unfaithfulness…. preach anything but the truth..

Gamble with your muses because this world offers you its untouched falses,,,

Fed is that beast within….

“You jumped to the conclusion
and landed on my chest
Now how am I supposed to make you see.”

Artist may have their art, but thy sir made lying an art for all but the faithful,

Retribution in that defenseless soul……..now stripped of its innocence…..

Take all that you can to leave the barren just as defenseless…

“I’ll just write this down
with hopes that you’ll understand
I can no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man”

Admire he who wears the same mask every night and every day…..he cannot be what he isn’t…and will pretend anything but to be….

Afraid of him thou shall be who speaks with the tongue of honey and yet wears the cloak of mischief and stalks the lonely street..

“And as I kiss your face you’ll know that
I can no longer apologize for
your former lover’s mistakes”

When did the unfaithful contend those who pretended all but to be?

Wounded are the forgotten….

Like those unmarked graves they will remain unremoved…

Forgotten and yet Forgiven..

Mourned and yet always blessed as they will be…

“My past is mine to keep
Who are you to question me…?
Perhaps someday you’ll learn
Too bad
it’s not our turn”

Comfortable…

Just Hold Me ~Maria Mena

Still care
You would know

There are simple truths in my world which I know like the back of my hand…..

Simple truths…..

No one else can see…

The visions in my head like vivid canvases…

“Comfortable as I am”

Peace found me in turmoil…..

The mystery of me was a riddle solved…..

Alas I play with words….

I wish I did not…..

Fail the words I once named…..

Fail the one memory I held dear….

“I wish it didn’t matter”

Forever is just but a word

The word did turn into eternity……

“But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if I liked rejection
I’d audition”

I broke what was not mine…… but why did I lose what I had not?

“And how come it is so hard?”

I gave what was not mine to keep……..

“And why do I still care?”

“Care”…..the blasted word…..the cursed misery……that inherently became mine….

“Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can’t remember life”

I can’t remember life…….

“I think I did have good days……

I think I did have good days….”

Complicated Theories…

I dreamt of making that trip yesterday…….a trip to the street of dreams…….why do these memories resurface? and the songs replay?

Why do I have a picture in my note-book?

The picture of a someday……

Why are the words “Someday……you know what my fear is? that there will be no someday” written on it?

I Miss You Love ~ Maria Mena

Any day now...

“I’ve run out complicated theories
so now I’m taking back my words”
I have made excuses …….and there is no excuse good enough……because it does not make sense……“Remind me why we decided this was for the best”

It is not about wanting closure or solving a riddle…….I am just wondering when did that 2 second delay…..become permenent one……in that long distance conversation

“I know the distance is a factor but I stretch as often as I can” I gave in….and I gave up……. I wanted answers…….

“Don’t act like you don’t know me
It’s still me, I never changed”
I did not intend the cold shoulder…..nor did I ever mean to not  forget…..

Am I a mere memory now of a someday? I am just turning the pages in a notebook……and I hesitate to find that picture……of a someday…….and I will never not forget the day the phone rang on the other end of the line…..why is that virtual walk etched in my head……