I am not a martyr…
I have never walked the line nor dodged a bullet…..
But today I feel like a tragic flaw…
Not because of my inability to write or communicate…
It is because of my selfish need to destroy whats left of innocence…
We Belong Together ~ Gavin DeGraw
I know someone who lost his wife to cancer……
Everytime I heard him speak of his late wife…I saw a spark…. A reverence in his eyes….Like she never left him…….and Their’s was a story that generations would come to hear and it would still evoke the same sense of magic and hope as it did for me in this cold twisted world….
“The hammer may strike, be dead on the ground
A nail to my hand, a cross on his crown
We’re done if we’re undone
Finished if we are incomplete
As one we are everything
We are everything we need“
Every great story has a “Happy Ending”……what makes them great is not the Happily ever after…..it is the start and the middle bit that most of us in our own lives forget to enjoy….
“What good is a life, with no one to share
The light of the moon, the honor of a swear
We can try to live the way of which you speak”
I have an apology to write……a long one….an apology for my lost innocence,
An apology for the promise I never did keep…
But this darkness does not have all the answers…
“We belong together
Like the open seas and shores
Wedded by the planet force
We’ve both been spoken for”
I am not a martyr…..
I did not dodge any bullets…..
I turned my back on that one true thing I swore I would protect….now what does that make me?
“All this indecision
All this independent strength
Still, we’ve got our hearts on save
We’ve got our hearts on save”
They say “Just because a song is going to end, there is no reason not to love it”
But why do I feel I was the one who destroyed the tape?
“Someday when you’re lonely
Sometime after all this bliss
Somewhere lost in emptiness
I hope you find this gift… “
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