Good Morning..

It’s half past 12…. I have a monstrous headache that is killing me…..

I cannot sleep….

The Way I Am ~ Ingrid Michaelson

I might be a whole lot of other things…but I am mostly   conflicted… 99% of the time..

“If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I’d find a match.
Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am”

When I think of time sometimes I feel like I am filling it in a little match box…..

The airy fairy talk….is so far from the truth…..

Loose ends…..or was it unfinished busines..

“If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I’ll make it better.
Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am”

Why are we always on wrong frequencies…. did you say what I thought I heard? or did I hear what you did not say?

I long to fly the white flag….

Tell you I am tired…..

Make peace with me….

Let me tell you all that I want you to someday forget….

Or am I disturbing your peace and sanity while losing mine?

“I’d buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.”

Sobriety of my thoughts will not cease until they have been let free to damage yours….

Forbid me to…..

Speak to me unkind once more so I will retreat maybe this time forever……

Don’t look through me as you always do……was I so cruel……

Do you spite the memory in spite of their insignificance…..

Why is complexity a mere simplicity when I am with you?

97th Time

Ready? Not an easy one….total mindf%#K this time!

Don’t say I dint  warn you!

Pseudo-Conversations

Blah Blah Blah Blah….

Blah de blah de blah……

Confused? well let me break this down…..

You know the things you really want to say but you always end up saying something utterly ambiguous in contrast to the things you were supposedly thinking?

(Wait…….What?)

I consider myself the forerunner in the art of such non-existent conversations….

(FFS JEN!)

Ok Ok we will go into a song…….meanwhile I will collect my thoughts and figure out how I can write like an (a ahem,!) adult (psh!)  and the world can make sense again?

Someday We’ll Know ~ New Radicals

I can see it I am going to run this post to the ground by my incessant…….inarticulate f**kery!

(WTH!- meanwhile can I just interject that this is my next song in the someday series…kthnxbye!)

What I am trying to say is I cannot speak my mind……we all know this is an ongoing problem……yeah yeah I took one of those classes which was going to teach me how to speak my mind…… (Alright…alright mom I wont practise on you!)…..well surprise! It dint work……….well to really break it down I AM CHICKEN BECAUSE I CANNOT TELL PEOPLE WHAT I AM ACTUALLY THINKING!

There! (Phew!….now that was easy!)

“90 miles outside chicago
Can’t stop driving
I don’t know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later, you’re still on my mind”

Random enough?

What was I saying? ah my inability to converse about my deepest (aka I am A FREAK!), innermost (yeah right you freak!) feelings (Ha ha ha…….oh no you were serious?)

Dont belive me?

Hypothetical roleplay

(One such conversations taking place between two random people..people we don’t know! no no we don’t know them

Disclaimer: All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental….Of course! what did you expect?……this is no freaking auto bio you know!)

“Whatever happened to Emilia Earhart ,Who holds the stars up in the sky?” she asked him

“Is true love just once in a lifetime ?” he asked her back…..

“Did the captain of the Titanic cry” she questioned again

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(You feeling me? noo? well lets continue then…..)

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He said “Someday we’ll know, If love can move a mountain”

“Someday we’ll know,Why the sky is blue” she replied

“Someday we’ll know,Why I wasn’t meant for you” he whispered…

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(Psst…psst……is she dumb? well you know a little bit…..meanwhile you guys see what I mean?…hmm kinda? well you’ll see what I mean when I am through with this….keep rolling….)

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“Does anybody know the way to Atlantis,Or what the wind says when she cries” she blinked blankly….

I’m speeding by the place where I met you, (he Paused)…For the 97th time…. tonight” he exclaimed!

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(I know what you lot are thinking…….it gets better I tell you….)

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“Someday we’ll know,Why Samson loved Delilah” he said smiling at her….

Smiling back slowly she said One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon

He stiffened and with the familiar finality in his tone he said Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you

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Thoughts in her head I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me?

::::Finito::::

SO?

Did you get what I mean?

(NO?…………..MY POINT EXACTLY!)

That enough tomfoolery for today Miss Moses!

PS: Old habits die a thousand deaths indeed! (You Wish!)