Bones

Excavate ( feat* Saint Claire) – Macklemore

Hang with me awhile, Watson.

I am at the window, staring out. You see that reflection? yes, I see her too.

It is all sort of cloudy up here. Do you know what the difference between the light and dark is? It is where you find yourself, each day.

Like a layer of sadness melting all over you, you take a deep breath and let it fold you in.

Reflect quietly – was it you? Is it you? why is it always you?

Everywhere and anywhere you go- is it you? Are you too much? Are you too little? Stop it..

Rewind- do you remember? Rework those steps. That pattern… is it you?

It is heavy , have you wound yourself too tight? Step in here, rewrite…. focus, heal and let it go.

Open that box, lift it out and gently lay it down.

Wait…..

And you wait…. do you feel lighter?

See that reflection? Yes I see her. She is there.

Standing and looking out of that window….

I see her. She is here. You are here. “I” am here.

Little Black Clouds….

Maybe Tomorrow ~ Stereophonics

Been Inside of Out..
Been Inside of Out..

I have forgotten to switch the lights on this evening..

Sitting in the dark……I contemplate reading a book….

“I’ve been down and
I’m wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me”

As years roll on…..I have found that I am less likely to make up my mind…..

I am in love with the concept of  uncertainty,,,,

Make em plans and also break em…..

The fewer plans I make fewer the chances of me breaking em…..

“It wastes time
And I’d rather be high
Think I’ll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free”

Not wearing my heart on my sleeve this time around……

Birthday cards I forgot to post……

Anniversaries I missed…..

I wrap regret in a little box and tie up the ribbon…..

“I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upper side of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe”

It’s colder under water…….

I draw the shades and stop for a minute…..

Stop to think how will I make up for the time lost?

What would I do if I ever find myself staring at the dark specks of brown in those chilled eyes…….

Will I fumble and falter?

Succumbing to the truth….

And I wonder…….

“I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All me”

What use is an outdated flashback to me?

A worthless parasite eating away my sanity…..

Some bridges are worth burning…..

Thoughts best hidden…..

Words left unspoken…..

“So maybe tomorrow
I’ll find my way home”

Today…..

Today I am yours sweet melancholy…..