Of Your Peace..

Prayer of St. Francis ~ Sarah McLachlan

I read a statement the other day that said ‘Christianity is not for Loners’…. and I was a bit disappointed, it took me awhile to understand the statement…. but I wondered who made that statement….after much thought I arrived to the conclusion that surely it was not made by a man/ woman who has seen or suffered solitude ……

“Lord make me an instrument of your peace”

Surely it was not said by a prisoner who spends his time praying for forgiveness and mercy……

Where there is hatred let me sow love”

Surely those words were not spoken by a single mother who asks for strength and grace everyday….

Where there is injury- pardon”

It could not have been the errant son who repents his erring ways…..

“Where there is doubt- faith”

What about a poor man struggling with a burden of his debts and a family? does he get rejected from following a communal faith?

“Where there is despair-hope”

What is to give hope to a dying man if not for the solace of eternal life?

“Where there is darkness- light”

Not all of us who are lost, are lost because we want to……we are lost because we had no place to go…….but we find sanctuary with the man who is our Shepherd….

“And where there is sadness- joy”

It is reassuring to know that the Shepherd knows his sheep better than the sheep themselves…..

“O divine master grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;”

It was encouraging to hear today…..that he tought us how to pray…..he tought us how to ask….he tought us to call him “Our Father”

“to be understood as to understand;”

Faith however cannot be tought but has to be found….

“To be loved as to love”

He did not create religious jargon, Man did…..his message was simple enough….he said “Love one another as I have loved you”

“For it is in giving that we receive”

Society creates Loners…..Man creates outcasts…..

“it is in pardoning that we are pardoned”

We are what he made us, whether we are flawed to perfection or perfectly flawed …..he never did reject us……

So who is (less than perfect) man to say Christianity is not for loners?

“And it’s in dying that we are born to eternal life.”
Amen.

Little Black Clouds….

Maybe Tomorrow ~ Stereophonics

Been Inside of Out..
Been Inside of Out..

I have forgotten to switch the lights on this evening..

Sitting in the dark……I contemplate reading a book….

“I’ve been down and
I’m wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me”

As years roll on…..I have found that I am less likely to make up my mind…..

I am in love with the concept of  uncertainty,,,,

Make em plans and also break em…..

The fewer plans I make fewer the chances of me breaking em…..

“It wastes time
And I’d rather be high
Think I’ll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free”

Not wearing my heart on my sleeve this time around……

Birthday cards I forgot to post……

Anniversaries I missed…..

I wrap regret in a little box and tie up the ribbon…..

“I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upper side of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe”

It’s colder under water…….

I draw the shades and stop for a minute…..

Stop to think how will I make up for the time lost?

What would I do if I ever find myself staring at the dark specks of brown in those chilled eyes…….

Will I fumble and falter?

Succumbing to the truth….

And I wonder…….

“I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All me”

What use is an outdated flashback to me?

A worthless parasite eating away my sanity…..

Some bridges are worth burning…..

Thoughts best hidden…..

Words left unspoken…..

“So maybe tomorrow
I’ll find my way home”

Today…..

Today I am yours sweet melancholy…..