Tag: Change

Shadows of a song..

Every Ship Must Sail Away ~ Blue Merle

It’s official Watson!  I have lost my mojo….it is the damn brick wall I keep running into…..

Any particular reason? you might ask….

Nope, none that I can think of…..

Maybe inspiration has run dry this side of the world…

Even the furniture-less, and almost empty flat doesn’t do anything for me …..

You hear that?

It’s an echo in an empty mind…..

“Have you ever heard the sounds
In the shadows of a song
Have you ever felt their words
Blow right through you from beyond ”

Aftermath….

Not the cookies taste sweeter kind, definitely not the being in an Air Supply song feeling…..

It’s the aftermath of all the cookies and too much Air Supply songs kind….

The kind that makes you throw up on an empty stomach…..

“Oh change is in the air
And you wear it oh so well
I asked you if you cared
But if you cared I couldn’t tell”

Shy away sun, make way for the dreadful moon…..cause she doesn’t shine…..not as we want her to….

“‘Cause years pass and people change
The bluest skies turn to gray”

Cast away that frown, Honey……cause here comes the rain….

Poignant and Plain…

“And though it’s gonna hurt for now
Every ship must sail away
Every ship must sail away”

That Life,

The clouds are heavy today, overshadowing the mood…..giving me a sense of tranquilty……With my easy listening playlist on……the perfect sunday continues…..I look  out my kitchen window…..eventhough it seems cold outside I feel okay….the gentle breeze swaying the trees……if only life stayed that way……light and breezy…

Light Years Away~ MoZella

This song  reminds me of telephone boxes for some strange reason….when I think about it, it is not  all that strange….

“It’s almost like you had it planned
It’s like you smiled and shook my hand and said
“Hey, I’m about to screw you over, big time”
And what was I supposed to do?
I was stuck in between you and a hard place
We won’t talk about the hard place”

I think about all the times I stood inside those stupid telephone boxes crying……never wanting to make that call again……..standing infront of all those payphones dialing away my misery…….whispering quietly “I will wait”…….hoping to recognise the voice on the other end…..

“It’s how you wanted it to be
It’s like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I’m never going back
To who I was“

Strangers waiting behind me ……with that impatient look on their faces, their looks said…”Lady, you are wasting your coins and my time”……. how can they be so heartless? I think to myself……..I try and wipe away the last tear…….and I whisper again quietly “I will wait”……….it is the last coin…….I hate the last coin…….it always has to be the last coin……I drop it in……..the last 30 secs go by…….and before I can blink……the voice on the other line is gone……..

“But I don’t blame you anymore
That’s too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I’m not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life “

I havent stepped into a telephone box for years now…….I no longer use payphones……..I don’t remember that number my fingers memorised  ……no lose change to carry around thinking….just in case………

Meanwhile the sun shines shyly through the blinds on my window……….

“That life seems like light years away
Light years away
And that life seems like light years away
Light years away”

Language is leaving….

No More “I Love You’s” ~ Annie Lennox

Love Lennox’s kookiness………

“I used to be a lunatic from the gracious days”

I know there is a method to madness…….

I wanted to write about my so-called “Quarter life crises” that has become a second nature to me these past few days…..all the raging and ravings…….

Normal they say……

Is it?

“I don’t find myself bouncing home
Whistling buttonhole tunes to make me cry”

Honestly for me it’s not the “Single”, “Young” or “Not Young”, “Successful”, “Chasing”, “Dreams”, that bothers me…..

“No one ever speaks about the monsters”

What I struggle with mostly is, are words like “Integrity”, “Superficial”, “Gentleness”, “Righteousness”, “Forgiveness”  throw in a few more “nessess”……

It is about the “Attitude Transplant” I am going through……

“So many monsters”

The inner demons…..

Camden
Changes are shifting...

It looks to me like the human finally traded the heart to become the “TIN”

“No more i love you’s

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The language is leaving me

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No more i love you’s

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The language is leaving me in silence

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No more i love you’s ……Changes are shifting outside the words”

No not mine….

Pete Murray~ So Beautiful

The Sound

Probably one of the most subtle Love/Hate songs I really understand completely……..Neatly put……

I was meaning to put this song up for a while now…never got around to it…..

I have this feeling that everything around me is changing……..or maybe it is me…..maybe I am changing…..

But I remember a few who changed before I did……

The change in them dictated their perception…….

“And all the clothes that you wear
And the colors in your hair
Shouldn’t change you”

Probably one of the few things I could never come in terms with easily….Change……

“Now the scene that you’re in
And the people that you been with
Just get to me
But you think I’m not as cool”

Change……No longer bothers me……..

Change……Does not catch me off guard……..not anymore……

Change……

“Now you think your so damn fine
You can rule the world no not mine
I don’t think so”

Probably you will rule the world one day……but ……..never….. mine……No….I don’t think so…..

“Well I’m here to tell you babe
The game you’re in is just a game
So damn pretentious“

I got my fingers burned……….

“You have changed so much that I don’t know
If I can call you and tell you I care”