I am falling asleep but I still want to write about this one song which brings back the feeling of nostalgia….
The one that is filled with memories of vulnerability and torment…..
All I Want~ Susie Suh
I don’t know if it is the piano……
I don’t know of it is her voice…..
I don’t know if it is the words…..or the pain in which she sings them…..
I can never get enough of this song….
As I sit, hearing it play endlessly…… I let myself drown…..in the myriad waves of emotions that sweep over me…
Free Falling...
“Too many times, I have wondered” she sings……“What all trying is for” ?? she wonders….
“You come around, I feel so down, I’m gonna drown” as she drowns…..in remorse and regret……because she knows …..“I know that you’ve fallen short”…….what it feels to be let down…..
“And too many times, I have wanted”……..and many times she has wanted to “To turn around and walk away“
Because she knows deep inside…….she cannot be provided with what she needs……
As she contemplates……leaving……..
“I tell you that I wanna go” but she really wants to stay
“I tell you that I wanna go, but I wanna stay”
She wants to stay….but she knows she is going to lose herself…..
“I tell you that I wanna go, but I wanna stay, I tell you that I wanna go, but I wanna stay, I wanna stay,I wanna stay,I wanna stay……But I know I’m gonna lose myself this way”
“but…..” she asks “do you know”? It doesn’t change……“The way I feel about you at the end of the day”
she knows what she wants when she says “That all I want is what you got”
As she is torn between what she needs and what her heart wants……But it changes nothing………
Nothing changes when you know…….
“But do you know, It doesn’t change
The way I feel about you at the end of the day
‘Cause I know
That all I want is what you got”
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