Left Unsaid..

I know this is a crappy picture I just wish the light was a better  for me to capture the pretty little Cottage with a Yellow door….

Today I went over all my favorite Rod Stewart, Sting, Air Supply songs to kinda get the right one…..

Simply Red got the vote and the band was not even on the bloody list…

I guess what I am trying to say is….I have moments when I say or do the most irrational things, things that are ludicrous…(doesn’t add to my street cred now does it?)……and this is one of them…..

So Not Over You ~ Simply Red

There are Coincidences and then there are “The Coincidences”

(Care to Explain?)

I don’t think I can…..but I will try

“The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid,”

Dont quote me on this, but I did not have to go half way around the world to find out….what I always knew….

Like a fingerprint the truth cannot be altered or erased…

“So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call”

It is in the very fabric of existence……

I play it off by saying “It’s just a phase and will soon fade away” (And God knows I wish this was true)

“Felt a little better, told myself I’d be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead,”

But you see it always catches up ……

All that resolution crumbles at a  sight or a sound….

Restraint falls to pieces over a stupid love song….

“All my friends try to tell me better find somebody new
Why waste time being lonely when there’s nothing left to lose’

They said Time is a healer, but they weren’t wounds that needed healing…..

They were memories…..

“Anything to get you out of my mind
I’m a fool if I thought I could forget
And I could not forget”

Before you know it you are washed away by the flowing tide and you let yourself drown….

No signal fires, no safety nets…

For all the cautious tales, and the warnings bells….you left them behind….

When I think about it, rationale is not my problem……

It is easier to forget…..but let me tell you how difficult it is – to not remember….

“Cos everywhere I go
There’s a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
‘Cos I still believe and I could see how there’s nothing left of you and me
That time is over
‘Cos I’m so not over you”

It’s been…

Fallen ~ Sarah McLachlan

Out of my mind...
Never had..

No words today…

At least not the kind that make sense…..

I Exist…..

Always trying to find ways……to exit…

Always Unsure….

Unduly with woes….

Woman of little faith….

But Little is all I’ve got…..

Little Hope….

Little Grace…

“Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long-awaited answer
To a long and painful fight”

Confined to a mind that takes no prisoners….

Bound by a tale that breaks no hearts….

“We all begin with good intent”

Little Truths…

Little Kinds…..

“But we carry on our back, the burden”

Blame me not for what I haven’t done….

Wound me not for what I have….

Don’t pelt the dog just cause you can….

Don’t pelt the dog just cause you know you can….

“It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
that I’ve held so dear…”

Little Slow…

Little Woe..

“I’ve nowhere left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends”

It is not the yellow brick road that I seek…..nor the Lion, the Straw or the Tin….

Little Care…

Little Tear..

“But it’s one missed step you’ll slip before you know it”

Little Hope….

Little Faith…

Little too many…..

The Woman of little faith…..