Refuse to shine…

Collide ~ Howie Day

Is it true?

True that I am weak…….

Weak as a child who is lost in the crowd?

“The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you, yeah”

As I push my way through the crowd……hoping a hand will hold me any moment now……

“I’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
Light up again”

My little hands stopping strangers………they stop to look at me………..strangers with an expression that I don’t understand………..walk on……

“I’m quiet you know
You make a first impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know
I’m always on your mind”

Voices……I turn around……..

“Don’t stop here
I lost my place
I’m close behind”

“Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide”

Old Address

I wish life did not throw so many googlies at me…..

Missing~ Everything But The Girl

Yeah stalker much?

“I step off the train
I’m walkin’ down your street again
And pass your door
But you don’t live there anymore
It’s years since you’ve been there
And now you’ve disappeared somewhere
Like outer space
You’ve found some better place”

Remember that book……

I stuck my 16year old soul in it…..

Little stamps on each page……..

The scent……

Cut up cards…thousands of little marks on each page….. as if to testify my condition…..

“Could you be dead?
You always were two steps ahead
Of everyone
We’d walk behind while you would run
I look up at your house
And I can almost hear you shout, down to me
Where I always used to be”

The lyrical testimony……which took most of that summer to complete…..

Finally the phone rang….

It caught my breath…….

The book had reached its destination……

I remember the conversation vaguely……..

Bits caught up in my memory……

“Back on the train
I ask why did I come again
Can I confess?
I’ve been hangin’ ’round your old address
And the years have proved
To offer nothin’ since you moved
You’re long gone
But I can’t move on”

But most of all I remember thinking…….all through the conversation….. “This is as real as it gets……”

I won’t forget the trembling voice on the other side of the line…..which made me shiver…..

It was as real as it could get……

Alas……little did I know then …….that…….It was as real as it would ever get……

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I step off the train
I’m walkin’ down your street again
And pass your door
But you don’t live there anymore
It’s years since you’ve been there
And now you’ve disappeared somewhere
Like outer space
You’ve found some better place

Couple of hours…

Trying to find all the reasons why Dragon Ash blows my mind…..

Thinking of it……I have never spoken about my J & K love affairs……

WHY??

Coz its Personal…..Its mine….all mine…..they are all mine…..not to be shared…..like B&J’s cookie dough…..like a cheap razor, like a pair of beaten ballerina flats, like Led Zeppelin tee, like picture of blue sky,………

Jae, M flo, Jisun, Dragon Ash, R.ad, Bae Chi, not to forget……the unbeatten Toho….

Its love at first sound…..

Takeshi…….

T.O.P., Micky, Hyun with Jae? Myreal life f4 bias

but mostly Jae- the angel God forgot to pick up……the voice that keeps me awake at night…..

Back to Dragon Ash

Here it is from my secret stash of cultural contraband….a glimpse of my parallel universe…..

Way you move ~ M-Flo loves Dragon Ash

“It’s been a couple hours since you left me behind
I’m all alone… the keys you took was probably mine
So I just sit and watch TV. keep myself busy
Trying to get you out of my mind”

You know it in your bones…….

You don’t need reasons…..

“Who was it that sang the old song “Love Bites”
Remember that line? Remembered it last night
See I’ve been kind of blue lately
Thinkin’ just maybe
I should ask one more time…”

Star crossed……impossible……
Its withdrawl……..I need my fix…….

“So come home… come home… come home, today”

I know someday………I will look back and think of this…….

“Asteroid Lover you’re on my mind
A million years and still hard to find
Intergalactically sexy
Way you move gets me
Now’s the time let’s be one!”

Here we go…….into my parallel universe……..

I lose my grip on reality…….I float and there are no lines…..spaces……separating me from the piece of my soul…..

Repeat……

Fade~~

Numb,

Like a Star ~ Corrine Bailey Rae

A dull thud…..

The slow melody…..

A rush of memory…..

A faint revival……

A beautiful cause……

“Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,”

As I stood across the street…..

A half drunk coffee cup….

“Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,”

I watched the park……

Benches filled……..

My eyes flitted across…..

The streets abuzz with life…..

As a silent spectator……taking it in……

“Heaven has been away too long,”

I see life……with no faces in it…….

“When everything else is au fait,”

Time, why won’t you let me stop?

The Labyrinth

A Princess ~ Javier Navarrete (Original score Pan’s Labyrinth)

I have a leaking roof……

As worrying as the situation may be……I cannot help but smile………smile at the irony of it all……..

All my life……I have never once stayed at a home with a leaky roof….

No buckets, pot & pans trying to hold the dripping drops…..

Until now…..

Today I guess the heaven’s opened up and smiled at me…..

No lyrics again today……

Favorite soundtrack from a favorite movie…..

There is something soo heartbreaking and beautiful in this song…..

The gentle humming……just like a mother’s lullaby….sad yet soothing……

I have always dreamt of having a japanese coy pond……..complete with a Kakehi (bamboo fountain)……

Nothing like the soothing sound of trickling water…….

To Unwind……..

Zen out………

Oh but wait……Zen garden =/= Leaking roof……

A bit of imagination never did hurt anyone…..

Wondering Maybe…

I shouldnt really be writing this time of the day…

Song in my head….

I was wondering lately why I had given up looking for new music……

I wouldn’t be able to tell you exactly why…..

Unthinkable ~ Alicia Keys feat. Drake

Work of art!

The beat…..her voice…..his backing…..

SICK!

The Hook ….meh it got me hooked……

“I was wondering maybe……”

Ok I will shut up now……

“Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can’t say I came prepared
I’m suspended in the air
Won’t you come be in the sky with me”

Spanish Lullabies…

I have lived a sheltered life……

I have come to realise…..my sanctuary is the world I create around me……

Safe……

Almost Lover ~ A Fine Frenzy

“Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images”

It is a self-preservation thing…….

“You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick”

A defense mechanism…….

“We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images”

Vulnerable?……. I don’t remember the last time I let that feeling get anywhere near my postcode……

“And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no”

What I know is for me to keep…………what I gave was mine to forget…….

Improvise?…………..what do they say to the marines? You adapt. You overcome. You improvise.

“I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?”

It does not take long to change from being the hunted to the hunter………..

This is my territory…….my fortress……my home…..

These are the walls I build…….

And I don’t test the water…….

No game plan…..no strategy……

“Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do”

This is my world……..

“I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me”

My Sanctuary………

Woe Unto Thee…

Haven’t really been typing much these days…..

Who is it? ~ Michael Jackson….

Probably one of the most underrated songs by him…….

I am not the one to be dazzled by cheesy music videos…..

but this one……gets my vote….

Appropriate Music Video is sooo appropriate in this case…..

*****Perfect*****

I have a box of old tapes from the 80’s to the early 90’s….

My precious inheritance from my aunts and uncles……

“I Gave Her Money
I Gave Her Time
I Gave Her Everything
Inside One Heart Could Find
I Gave Her Passion
My Very Soul
I Gave Her Promises
And Secrets So Untold”

I always wonder what drives men to write songs about women…..especially the ones who left them…….

Here I am 5 and 20…… and I still don’t get human relationships…..the ones that involve 2 people……..

“I Am The Damned
I Am The Dead
I Am The Agony Inside
The Dying Head
This Is Injustice
Woe Unto Thee
I Pray This Punishment
Would Have Mercy On Me”

Being the female of my species……I consider myself adequately qualified to give a “Woman’s” perspective on the matter’s of the heart….

“It Seems That She Has Left Me
For Such Reasons Unexplained
I Need To Find The Truth
But See What Will I Do!”

I have to be honest…….when it comes to martian’s (Context: Men are from Mar’s?!!!) I am like an accountant attempting an open heart surgery…..

“And It Doesn’t Seem To Matter
And It Doesn’t Seem Right
‘Cause The Will Has Brought
No Fortune
Still I Cry Alone At Night
Don’t You Judge Of My Composure
‘Cause I’m Lying To Myself
And The Reason Why She Left Me
Did She Find In Someone Else?”

What does the term all out mean in their dictionary? How much does all out equate to in their books?

How do they grieve?

“And It Doesn’t Seem To Matter
And It Doesn’t Seem Right
‘Cause The Will Has Brought
No Fortune
Still I Cry Alone At Night
Don’t You Judge Of My Composure
‘Cause I’m Bothered Everyday
And She Didn’t Leave A Letter
She Just Up And Ran Away”

What drove this man to write this song? or any other man for that matter……men who started wars…….men who took the lives of other men…..others who took their own……..men who drove thousands of miles…..men who walked thousands of miles…….men who flew over oceans…..men who built magnificent tombs…….men who wrote profound poetry……..men who wrote books……all because of a “Woman”

“(Who Is It?)
It is A Friend Of Mine
(Who Is It?)
Is It My Brother?
(Who Is It?)
Somebody Hurt My Soul, Now
(Who Is It?)
I Can’t Take It ‘Cause I’m Lonely”

I have read about beautiful unicorns and fire-breathing dragons……..

What do they say about…..seeing is believing?

Slightest bit confused?

Welcome to the momentary memory loss program…

Stay Away ~ The Honorary Title

What do I NOT like about this song? Nothing….

Sometimes it is hard not to let your hidden evil side win…..

“No, I can’t dance less it’s slow or sad
To a song that’s far less obvious
If you’re using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go”

But what you cannot do is destroy everything that stands in front of you while you struggle with the Good and the EVIL!

(PREACH!)

“Stay away from me, stay away from me… now”

Obvious? Me?

(MAD, Much?)

Right! I don’t know much……but I know enough when to cut my losses and move on……(you think?!!)

Just when you think you know everything?

“No, I can’t dance ‘less it’s slow or sad (did you notice?)
To a song that’s far less obvious (did you notice?)
If your using me, do it slowly (did you notice?)
Make it last until I have to go (did you notice that i…?)”

Notice Much?

Comfortable…

Just Hold Me ~Maria Mena

There are simple truths in my world which I know like the back of my hand…..

Simple truths…..

No one else can see…

The visions in my head like vivid canvases…

“Comfortable as I am”

Peace found me in turmoil…..

The mystery of me was a riddle solved…..

Alas I play with words….

I wish I did not…..

Fail the words I once named…..

Fail the one memory I held dear….

“I wish it didn’t matter”

Forever is just but a word…

The word did turn into eternity……

“But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I’d choose to go
And if I liked rejection
I’d audition”

I broke what was not mine…… but why did I lose what I had not?

“And how come it is so hard?”

I gave what was not mine to keep……..

“And why do I still care?”

“Care”…..the blasted word…..the cursed misery……that inherently became mine….

“Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can’t remember life”

I can’t remember life…….