Lord Knows….

Fractured Life……

I miss my baby sister….

I wonder if she will ever forgive me for missing out on her life so much…..

We were comrades ……I hope we still are…

She is everything I am not…….

But we are like two different beats of the same song….

Just the same but somehow different…….

Aicha ~ Outlandish

“So sweet, so beautiful
Everyday like a queen on her throne
Don’t nobody knows how she feels
Aicha, Lady one day it will be real”

I have beautiful memories of her in my childhood…..

We could claw each others eyes out…..

And cry holding each other at the same time…..

She is what I call a lifeline…..

And she knows me all too well….

“Lord knows the way she feels
Everyday in his name she begins
To have her shining right here by my side
I’d sacrifice all them tears in my eyes”

All the secrets we shared….

The laughter and the tears….

It was always us against the world……..

“She needs somebody to lean on
Someone body, mind & soul
To take her hand, to take her world
And show her the time of her life, so true
Throw the pain away for good”

One day…..

What do they call it?

Stuck in a rut or something?

I know I have been……stuck in a rut lately…..not writing about anything new…..the same old same old

One Day I’ll Fly Away ~ Randy Crawford

Not everyone’s cup of tea….

But a classic nevertheless

“I make it alone
When love is gone
Still you made your mark
Here in my heart”

I shake my head as a sign of resignation…..

I cannot bear to hear this song anymore but that doesn’t stop me from writing about it…..

Nor does it make the song any less special….

Acknowledge…..

“I follow the night
Can’t stand the light
When will I begin
My life again”

Easy……no one said it was easy……

They said grow a pair….

I did not want reality shoved in my face…….but it was more like someone slapped me it with a wet fish……….

I wake up and smell the coffee…..

Measured……

Or maybe I read a little too much of…Miss.May Alcott and let it get to my head…..

They said break out of the mould…..

But what I see in the mirror…..

Is not what the world hopes to see in me……

“One day I’ll fly away leave your love to yesterday
What more can your love do for me
When will love be through with me”

Definitely not everybody’s kettle of fish…..

But a true classic nevertheless….

“Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day that dreaming ends”

Sparks…

Sparks~ Coldplay

Things I discover no longer surprise me….

But my nonchalance surprises me…

Unaffected….

I stare now at decadence ……. and stay unmoved by it……

My reactions subdued…

Temper tamed….

“Did I drive you away?
I know what you’ll say
You say, “Oh, sing one we know”
But I promise you this
I’ll always look out for you
That’s what I’ll do”

No element of surprise left…….

Overwhelming emotions died a poisoned death…..

How can one be so underwhelmed by life?

“I saw sparks”

Fools & Kings…

Perfection…..and too much of it……

Nature Boy ~ Nat ‘King’ Cole

I watched the Untamed Heart last night…….where has this movie been all my life?

The soundtrack is beautiful…….

Cole’s voice here is exquisite…..

“There was a boy
A very strange enchanted boy
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea”

And I am enchanted…….

And transported to the other world……

Acute emotions…………

“A little shy
And sad of eye
But very wise
Was he”

What did snow white and the sleeping beauty have in common?

“And then one day
A magic day he passed my way
And while we spoke of many things, fools and kings”

I don”t know why I can’t help but think of mowgli……..and the jungle book…..when I hear this song…

“This he said to me
-The greatest thing
You’ll ever learn
Is just to love
And be loved
In return”

Clouds will Rage….

To Mothers who are, will be and were meant to be…..

In My Arms ~ Plumb

To the child in my dreams….

“Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your curly cues
Your contagious smile
And as I watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight”

“I saw you again yesterday…..It seems like we are meant to meet this way…..

I see you……when you think I cannot….

I want you to know ……You were never unspoken of…. far from it…….

I spoke about you all day…..everyday…….

I remember you like a name in the holy book…..

You were my saving grace……

You were our saving grace…….

We never wished you away……

We were the children of that storybook…….

And you our little princess from the fairytale….”

“Story books full of fairy tales
Of kings and queens and the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You’ll someday see the truth from lies “

“It is not pain that I feel, but the cold realization,

Of the promise I made….

It is the image of you…..

Your hazel eyes……

Your golden brown hair…..

Your Olive skin…….

See I was a little girl……who loved to dream……

A little girl…….

just like a little girl you would grow up to be…..

But little girls grow up too……”

“Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
But you are never all alone
Because I will always
Always love you “

“I see you……..

I know we see you….

Even though it is no longer ‘us’

We loved you before you came…..

We always loved you as a part of us…..

A part our dream…..

A part of our fairytale……

Precious the name…..

Precious the memory…..

And I pray for the memory…..

You were the Sweetest truth……

You will always be our saving grace…..

You will always be my saving grace…..”

“Clouds will rage
And storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms”

Eyes of a Passerby…

I would like this to be volume 1 in the Someday series……

No particular order….

Someday ~Sugar Ray

Ok it is because of Mark McGrath…..he reminds me of someone I used to know…..

Not Really……

Well Ok…….maybe…..

Well no but yes……… but thats not the point…….

The point is the Mind- F*”* of lyrics,,,,,,

“Some say
Better things will come my way
No matter what they try to say you were always there for me”

Things I will never say……

Things you will never know…..

“Somewhere
When the sun begins to shine
I hear a song from another time
And they’ll fade away”

Like “I am Sorry”

Like “It was me”

Like “I gave up”

Like “I know you do”

“Someone said you tried too long,

Someone said we got it all wrong,

Someone said we tried too long”

Things you will never know….. are the things I’ll carry to the grave…..

A Little Unkind..

Sad Eyes ~ Bruce Springsteen

I have this feeling lately…….something familiar….

Like someone dropped me off a thousand feet high diving board….

And I am free-falling…..

My life is fast forwarding in front of me in matters of seconds….

Too dramatic eh?

“Every day here, you come walking
I hold my tongue, I don’t do much talking
You say you’re happy and you’re doin’ fine
Well, go ahead, baby, I got plenty of time”

It is all these convoluted thoughts in my head…

Like being trapped in a box….

“Baby, don’t you know I don’t care?
Don’t you know that I’ve been there?”

I hide behind a corroded reflection…..

It is so easy to pretend…..

“Well, if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don’t worry, darling, it’ll slip your mind”

Please tell me it is a phase……it will fade away…..

I don’t want to cushion the blow…..

I will take the hit…….

“I know you think you’d never be mine
Well, that’s okay, baby, I don’t mind”

I hang on to the bare threads of reason…..baseless facts diluting my reasoning…..

Oh have mercy on me…….and spare the broken words…..

“That shy smile’s sweet–that’s a fact
Go ahead; I don’t mind the act”

What if?- is a privilege I cannot allow myself to indulge in…..

“Well, one more step and it’ll be too late”

The stakes are high……

“Like you’re so sure I’ll be standing here”

Stop………Wait…..Am I the choices I make?

“I guess sad eyes never lie”

It’s Funny….

Whirlwind……

Lips of an Angel~ Hinder

“Honey why you calling me so late?
It’s kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper ’cause I can’t be too loud”

Protecting the people who you care about………is hard sometimes……

Faithful, Unfaithful, Fidelity, Infidelity

A tangled web we weave indeed….

“Well my girl’s in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on”

Honest song is Honest…..

“It’s funny that you’re calling me tonight
And, yes, I’ve dreamt of you too
And does he know you’re talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don’t think she has a clue”

It is hard to be that person on either side of the fence…..

“Honey why you calling me so late? “

How far would you go to protect the people you care about?

“Oh what a tangled web we weave, When first we practice to deceive”

– Sir Walter Scott

A Mystery…

I think we need a chirpy song today….because its a windy day……

A feel good number,,,,,

I guess we need our man Buble today…..

Everything ~ Michael Buble

We all wish we meant the world to someone….

or atleast we were the someone in that someone’s world…..

The thing I love here about Buble is that he makes the thought magical for me…..

“You’re a falling star, you’re the get away car.
You’re the line in the sand when I go too far.
You’re the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you’re the perfect thing to say.”

Kinda makes you want to be the girl he sang this for…..

“And you play it coy but it’s kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don’t pretend that you don’t know it’s true.
’cause you can see it when I look at you.”

It’s his voice …..smooth like honey…….and there you are smiling like a goof…..

“You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space,
You’re every minute of my everyday.”

That last line kills me every time…….

Corny like cotton candy…… but somehow not the cringe worthy kinda corny…..

And …..for my favorite part……

“It’s you, it’s you, you make me sing.
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.”

Now wait for it…the best part….he goes all broody and low…..

“You’re every song, and I sing along.
‘Cause you’re my everything.”

I remember asking this a few years ago……now am going to ask again……

“Mom, Find me a Buble!”

Seriously Ma, about time!

It’s been…

Fallen ~ Sarah McLachlan

No words today…

At least not the kind that make sense…..

I Exist…..

Always trying to find ways……to exit…

Always Unsure….

Unduly with woes….

Woman of little faith….

But Little is all I’ve got…..

Little Hope….

Little Grace…

“Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long-awaited answer
To a long and painful fight”

Confined to a mind that takes no prisoners….

Bound by a tale that breaks no hearts….

“We all begin with good intent”

Little Truths…

Little Kinds…..

“But we carry on our back, the burden”

Blame me not for what I haven’t done….

Wound me not for what I have….

Don’t pelt the dog just cause you can….

Don’t pelt the dog just cause you know you can….

“It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
that I’ve held so dear…”

Little Slow…

Little Woe..

“I’ve nowhere left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends”

It is not the yellow brick road that I seek…..nor the Lion, the Straw or the Tin….

Little Care…

Little Tear..

“But it’s one missed step you’ll slip before you know it”

Little Hope….

Little Faith…

Little too many…..

The Woman of little faith…..

“Why live life from dream to dream And dread the day that dreaming ends”

“There was a boy A very strange enchanted boy They say he wandered very far, very far Over land and sea”

“A little shy And sad of eye But very wise Was he”

“And then one day A magic day he passed my way And while we spoke of many things, fools and kings”

“This he said to me -The greatest thing You’ll ever learn Is just to love And be loved In return”

“Your baby blues So full of wonder Your curly cues Your contagious smile And as I watch You start to grow up All I can do is hold you tight”

“Story books full of fairy tales Of kings and queens and the bluest skies My heart is torn just in knowing You’ll someday see the truth from lies “

“Castles they might crumble Dreams may not come true But you are never all alone Because I will always Always love you “

“Clouds will rage And storms will race in But you will be safe in my arms Rains will pour down Waves will crash all around But you will be safe in my arms”