Tag: Music

Do without..

I was going to write today why I hate the Lion king and why I have sworn never to watch Bambi ever again….

Seemed like such a childish thing to write about….

Thank you Disney for scarring me for Life….

I don’t think I will ever forgive you for killing Mufasa  or Bambi’s mother……now my hands tremble when I walk by the video store and I see cut outs of the Lion king…..Oh how could you?

Thanks to you I never did complete my Bambi coloring book which was drenched half the time with a certain 5 year old tears….Damn you Disney! Damn you!

The Loneliness ~ Babyface

But The Lion King reminds me of a special detail of my childhood….

It reminds me of a little boy I used to know…

The boy who owned The lion king movie….I used to think he was so much like Simba…..royal and a little sad…..

I remember he went through a phase of eating with his left hand…..He loved the The Adams Family….while I loathed Wednesday….He was always so bright-eyed and ready for school, while I hated waking up at dawn and the fact we had to wear a uniform,,

He was barely 11 while he walked around like he was 20, and I was secretly so proud of him as my friend…..he was always gentle to animals and loved his fishes…. a clown who made Sophie and me laugh all the time….he always spoke to us and treated us if we were Princesses…..

His eyes had a secret….that I thought only I could see…….a secret that he never did tell me…..

I don’t remember how we first met…..but I know we will never forget him….because I know our childhood would have never been the same without him….

“So tell me how you feel
Are you for real ?”

Pretend,

Be Be Your Love~ Rachael Yamagata

This song is intoxicating, if you haven’t heard it yet here is a  tip YouTube it pronto….

“If I could take you away….”

Someone once told me….pick your battles….

Pick the battles that are worth fighting for….

Don’t stress about the whats, whens and the whys….

“Pretend I was queen”

How am I to know?

How will I know when I should give up and when should I go on fighting? ….fighting for what I believe in…

“What would you say
Would you think I’m unreal?”

What if I don’t want to know the truth?

“‘Cause everybody’s got their way I should feel”

What if I am the one who cannot handle the truth….

Worse, what if I have always known the truth…

The only truth…

“Everybody’s talking how I, can’t, can’t be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real”


Soul Vacation..

Alright all this soul baring these  past few days has left me lost for words, again!

Too much serious business….a little change of pace,,,,and a shift in thinking might help….(I doubt it)

Lets talk about opportunities? How about the phrase the world is your oyster?

Drops of Jupiter~ Train

Please forgive me if this turns out into a yet another lengthy talk talk……every word in this song should be spelled out…..like little celebrations….

Out of reach…..or shall we speak of missed steps

“Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s a time to change, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey”

You know that habit you are trying to kick off….but you can’t….because you know you would miss it too much…..

I’ll tell you about mine……….

“But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?”

Putting it right that’s what I called it…..

We will come to that in a bit……

“Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?”

I could recycle the story and tell you its a new one….

Tell you  have not heard this one before….

Well it is the same old song and dance really,

“Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo
Reminds me that there’s room to grow, hey“

I wanted to know what it would be like to be spoken to in old terms……

Gazed at….with the same innocence….

Thought of with the same fervor….

“Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol’ Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land”

Are we all each others demons and angels? is peeking into the future the only way of undoing your past…


“Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you’re wrong?”

Ah the idealistic points of view…..the humbling of a realist,….the break points and the break evens….

“Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance
Five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?”

A complete circle….

“But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way?”

“But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?”

“And tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself?”

“And did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you’re lonely looking for yourself out there”

Life’s complete circle….

Young Again…

Love Song ~ 311

I know people like the Cure version best….

But Moi goes for the feel of the song

Wow what a downpour today..

I’ll live to see the monsoons hit this side of the world (I wish!)

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again”

I remember..

I have this strange twisted need to imagine myself in the hospital

Doesn’t really make sense because I hate hospitals…

Just the smell and sight of them makes me nauseous

And lets just day the doctors and nurses will never be my peeps…(No offense Doc!)

Jokes apart

It could be that I spent a lot of time in hospitals in my younger days, more than my share really..

I watched my 2 of  grandparents fight their last battles there..

And even though my parents do mention in passing about my brief stint there as an infant…. I don’t ever remember  being in one…not that I would like to dissect that further…

There is something about hospitals and train stations that make feel like they reek of death..

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again”

The worst part of it all…I always Imagine myself in the hospital….

Like thinking what should I say to my family…

If I will ever get flowers delivered….

How many get well cards I will get..(given my reputation for being the most popular person{Sarcastic Watson, I am being Sarcastic} this is a real worry…)

I like to imagine who I would want to hold my hand before I die…

Even though I flinch at the thought of it all…that doesn’t stop me from imagining stuff like this…

But there is something about hospitals that I cannot get my head around…

It feels like me, the hospitals and the train stations will never make our peace..

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again”

What a depressing thought to start of with…totally not what I came here to write about..

Anyways before I digress and suck the life out of a beautiful day like a dementor..

The day is beautiful….just the way I like it…

Cool breeze, pregnant clouds looming around, the swinging trees….

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again”

Only the other day my aunt asked me the if I was scared..

Actually lot of people these days ask me if I am scared…

I know I give them the “I cannot afford to” shrug….

Honestly I haven’t given it a thought as yet…

I don’t know should I be scared?

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again”

I don’t know, it’s just not my style to be…

Maybe I am missing the point…

The world knows something that I don’t..

I know I am absolutely loco to think like I do, psychotic as my friends say….but those are just stuff that pop up in this silly head of mine…

But I got to say, the world around me has sobered up a bit..

“Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again”

Well anyway what shall be will be….

Where were we going with the song?

Oh I remember..

I like it….(A lot!)

It is almost perfect…in my humble opinion..

I have to run a bath….need to mull things over…

And here is me hoping to never see myself in a hospital,

Why you may ask?

Well other than the 99 other reasons I just gave….

I must say the top reason will always be that the Hospital gowns are just not my style….

“However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you”

97th Time

Ready? Not an easy one….total mindf%#K this time!

Don’t say I dint  warn you!

Pseudo-Conversations

Blah Blah Blah Blah….

Blah de blah de blah……

Confused? well let me break this down…..

You know the things you really want to say but you always end up saying something utterly ambiguous in contrast to the things you were supposedly thinking?

(Wait…….What?)

I consider myself the forerunner in the art of such non-existent conversations….

(FFS JEN!)

Ok Ok we will go into a song…….meanwhile I will collect my thoughts and figure out how I can write like an (a ahem,!) adult (psh!)  and the world can make sense again?

Someday We’ll Know ~ New Radicals

I can see it I am going to run this post to the ground by my incessant…….inarticulate f**kery!

(WTH!- meanwhile can I just interject that this is my next song in the someday series…kthnxbye!)

What I am trying to say is I cannot speak my mind……we all know this is an ongoing problem……yeah yeah I took one of those classes which was going to teach me how to speak my mind…… (Alright…alright mom I wont practise on you!)…..well surprise! It dint work……….well to really break it down I AM CHICKEN BECAUSE I CANNOT TELL PEOPLE WHAT I AM ACTUALLY THINKING!

There! (Phew!….now that was easy!)

“90 miles outside chicago
Can’t stop driving
I don’t know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later, you’re still on my mind”

Random enough?

What was I saying? ah my inability to converse about my deepest (aka I am A FREAK!), innermost (yeah right you freak!) feelings (Ha ha ha…….oh no you were serious?)

Dont belive me?

Hypothetical roleplay

(One such conversations taking place between two random people..people we don’t know! no no we don’t know them

Disclaimer: All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental….Of course! what did you expect?……this is no freaking auto bio you know!)

“Whatever happened to Emilia Earhart ,Who holds the stars up in the sky?” she asked him

“Is true love just once in a lifetime ?” he asked her back…..

“Did the captain of the Titanic cry” she questioned again

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(You feeling me? noo? well lets continue then…..)

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He said “Someday we’ll know, If love can move a mountain”

“Someday we’ll know,Why the sky is blue” she replied

“Someday we’ll know,Why I wasn’t meant for you” he whispered…

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(Psst…psst……is she dumb? well you know a little bit…..meanwhile you guys see what I mean?…hmm kinda? well you’ll see what I mean when I am through with this….keep rolling….)

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“Does anybody know the way to Atlantis,Or what the wind says when she cries” she blinked blankly….

“I’m speeding by the place where I met you, (he Paused)…For the 97th time…. tonight” he exclaimed!

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(I know what you lot are thinking…….it gets better I tell you….)

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“Someday we’ll know,Why Samson loved Delilah” he said smiling at her….

Smiling back slowly she said “One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon “

He stiffened and with the familiar finality in his tone he said “Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you “

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Thoughts in her head “I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me? “

::::Finito::::

SO?

Did you get what I mean?

(NO?…………..MY POINT EXACTLY!)

That enough tomfoolery for today Miss Moses!

PS: Old habits die a thousand deaths indeed! (You Wish!)

Today Never Happened..

The Cross road….

I am in no mood to write….

But the vagueness of life compels me to put down my 2 cents on crossroads…..and the frequency in which I keep finding myself at one……which is often….

Dare you to move ~ Switchfoot

I could just say the universe is at it again….

Conspiring…….throwing that special U Bend at me….Yet Again!

Betting on me to lose……

Asking me to choose between….chaos and control…..

Blatantly asking me “Who’s Laughing now Kid?”

“Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone’s here
Everyone’s here
Everybody’s watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?”

My sister reminds me that no matter what, it has always worked out in my favor and I have no reason to feel apprehensive this time around just because it was not part of  “THE PLAN”!

And I have to say that my little Miss Smarty Pants is right (as always, …..now don’t go telling her that I said so….)

But how is one supposed to STOP, DROP and take that U TURN?

Well the voice of reason says……”Simple, You just do”…..

“Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistence
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be”

In case you haven’t noticed…..

In case you haven’t already figured it out…..

This is about….. Who I am…….and Who I could be………

And Yes this is also about ….How it is……..and How it should be….

“Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here”

Cross roads are life’s take on second chances…..

“I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before”

Same Script…

Take 1

Set Scene….

Take 2

Flashback….

Take 3

Lights….Camera…..Action….

And We are on…..

Same Script Different Cast ~ Whitney Huston Feat* Deborah Cox

We all know how the story goes…….

Take 4

Maybe it was the Fur Elise in the background…..

Or maybe because it was one point in a woman’s life where she went “Story of My Life”

Take 5- Scene 1

The Player…

Take 6- Scene 2

The Women he played…

“I know he’s leaving me for you”

“Who said that? Who told you that it’s true?”

“What is he tellin’ you?
Could it be the same things that he told me? “

“He told me that he loved me”

“I heard that”

“He told me I was…..”

“Beautiful?”

“How did you know? How did you know?”

“Because I played that scene before.”

Take 7

Fast forward

That’s funny…..He said “don’t hate on the player honey…..hate the game……”

Take 8

Reality

“This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you’re the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you’re on.
Just remember you’ve been warned.
Enjoy it now, ’cause it won’t last.
Same script, different cast.”

Final Take

What feels worse? knowing that you were played? or realizing that ‘You’ were just ‘A Game’?

Listen Baby…

We need sugary fluff today……

What better than having Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell do one of the greatest duets ever?

Aint No Mountain High Enough ~ Marvin Gaye & Tammi Tarrell

I smile just by hearing him go…”Listen Baby”

I know, I know candy floss is soo last season……

But we are loving the saccharine tasting love songs today……

That warm fuzzy feeling oh how we missed it….

Those little flutters in your heart, that made your toes curl up……

“If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I’ll be there in a hurry
You don’t have to worry
‘Cause baby,”

“cause baby” he says…..

“There ain’t no mountain high enough
Ain’t no valley low enough
Ain’t no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you”

here is to all that’s good and cheesy in this world….

Oh Sugar you got me high!

Broken Poetry..

Our Battles ~Maria Mena

Not tied down..

Insolence leaves me no choice…

contemptuous feelings fill my eyes half full…..

“Our battles are repetitious
if not broken poetry
and maybe that’s the attraction
that you’re as self-absorbed as me”

Fruitful unfaithfulness…. preach anything but the truth..

Gamble with your muses because this world offers you its untouched falses,,,

Fed is that beast within….

“You jumped to the conclusion
and landed on my chest Now how am I supposed to make you see.”

Artist may have their art, but thy sir made lying an art for all but the faithful,

Retribution in that defenseless soul……..now stripped of its innocence…..

Take all that you can to leave the barren just as defenseless…

“I’ll just write this down
with hopes that you’ll understand
I can no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man”

Admire he who wears the same mask every night and every day…..he cannot be what he isn’t…and will pretend anything but to be….

Afraid of him thou shall be who speaks with the tongue of honey and yet wears the cloak of mischief and stalks the lonely street..

“And as I kiss your face you’ll know that
I can no longer apologize for
your former lover’s mistakes”

When did the unfaithful contend those who pretended all but to be?

Wounded are the forgotten….

Like those unmarked graves they will remain unremoved…

Forgotten and yet Forgiven..

Mourned and yet always blessed as they will be…

“My past is mine to keep
Who are you to question me…?
Perhaps someday you’ll learn
Too bad
it’s not our turn”

The Key..

Key to My Heart ~ Jessica Jarrell

Rarely do I sit up and take notice of the new kids on the block, ones who can sing…..

But when I heard this song in the movie (The Back Plan)…..I honestly searched all around trying to find out who sang it…..I was surprised to find out it was a 15-year-old who sang it…..more than the vocals I think what impressed me most was the emotions she put into it……it sounded as if she was being effortlessly earnest about what she sang,,

“Boy you put me on the spot I don’t know what to say
But I’m trying anyway
Like my hearts gonna drop
My mind drifts away and I can’t control the pains”

Blessed are people who can let themselves fall unconditionally…….because they know not what it feels like to have a constricted heart .

“Words are spinning in my head
Don’t know why I’m holding back
I should just tell you how I’m feeling”

Blessed are people who can say exactly what they think…….because they will never know how it hurts to hold back.

“The more I brush it off
Tell myself it’s nothing at all
Deeper I fall”

Blessed are people who can let go with no strings attached….because they will never know how hard it is to hold on.

“And I imagine everyday
A thousand different ways
How you respond to what I say”

Happy are they who can let their dreams come true………because they will never have to wonder why they never did.

“Am I getting lost in my dreams?
Are you unreachable to me?
Cause these butterflies just won’t go away”

Blessed are they who can relish each moment of the feeling……..because they will never know what it feels like to fear it.

“But I don’t wanna act a fool
Don’t wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don’t know what you gonna do”

But most of all blessed are they who believe in it……..because they will never have to feel cut up for being a non believer.

So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I’m feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart”