Same Script…

Take 1

Set Scene….

Take 2

Flashback….

Take 3

Lights….Camera…..Action….

And We are on…..

Same Script Different Cast ~ Whitney Huston Feat* Deborah Cox

We all know how the story goes…….

Take 4

Maybe it was the Fur Elise in the background…..

Or maybe because it was one point in a woman’s life where she went “Story of My Life”

Take 5- Scene 1

The Player…

Take 6- Scene 2

The Women he played…

“I know he’s leaving me for you”

“Who said that? Who told you that it’s true?”

“What is he tellin’ you?
Could it be the same things that he told me? “

“He told me that he loved me”

“I heard that”

“He told me I was…..”

“Beautiful?”

“How did you know? How did you know?”

“Because I played that scene before.”

Take 7

Fast forward

That’s funny…..He said “don’t hate on the player honey…..hate the game……”

Take 8

Reality

“This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you’re the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you’re on.
Just remember you’ve been warned.
Enjoy it now, ’cause it won’t last.
Same script, different cast.”

Final Take

What feels worse? knowing that you were played? or realizing that ‘You’ were just ‘A Game’?

Listen Baby…

We need sugary fluff today……

What better than having Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell do one of the greatest duets ever?

Aint No Mountain High Enough ~ Marvin Gaye & Tammi Tarrell

I smile just by hearing him go…”Listen Baby”

I know, I know candy floss is soo last season……

But we are loving the saccharine tasting love songs today……

That warm fuzzy feeling oh how we missed it….

Those little flutters in your heart, that made your toes curl up……

“If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I’ll be there in a hurry
You don’t have to worry
‘Cause baby,”

“cause baby” he says…..

“There ain’t no mountain high enough
Ain’t no valley low enough
Ain’t no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you”

here is to all that’s good and cheesy in this world….

Oh Sugar you got me high!

Broken Poetry..

Our Battles ~Maria Mena

Not tied down..

Insolence leaves me no choice…

contemptuous feelings fill my eyes half full…..

“Our battles are repetitious
if not broken poetry
and maybe that’s the attraction
that you’re as self-absorbed as me”

Fruitful unfaithfulness…. preach anything but the truth..

Gamble with your muses because this world offers you its untouched falses,,,

Fed is that beast within….

“You jumped to the conclusion
and landed on my chest Now how am I supposed to make you see.”

Artist may have their art, but thy sir made lying an art for all but the faithful,

Retribution in that defenseless soul……..now stripped of its innocence…..

Take all that you can to leave the barren just as defenseless…

“I’ll just write this down
with hopes that you’ll understand
I can no longer be disciplined by
the frustration of an insecure man”

Admire he who wears the same mask every night and every day…..he cannot be what he isn’t…and will pretend anything but to be….

Afraid of him thou shall be who speaks with the tongue of honey and yet wears the cloak of mischief and stalks the lonely street..

“And as I kiss your face you’ll know that
I can no longer apologize for
your former lover’s mistakes”

When did the unfaithful contend those who pretended all but to be?

Wounded are the forgotten….

Like those unmarked graves they will remain unremoved…

Forgotten and yet Forgiven..

Mourned and yet always blessed as they will be…

“My past is mine to keep
Who are you to question me…?
Perhaps someday you’ll learn
Too bad
it’s not our turn”

The Key..

Key to My Heart ~ Jessica Jarrell

Rarely do I sit up and take notice of the new kids on the block, ones who can sing…..

But when I heard this song in the movie (The Back Plan)…..I honestly searched all around trying to find out who sang it…..I was surprised to find out it was a 15-year-old who sang it…..more than the vocals I think what impressed me most was the emotions she put into it……it sounded as if she was being effortlessly earnest about what she sang,,

“Boy you put me on the spot I don’t know what to say
But I’m trying anyway
Like my hearts gonna drop
My mind drifts away and I can’t control the pains”

Blessed are people who can let themselves fall unconditionally…….because they know not what it feels like to have a constricted heart .

“Words are spinning in my head
Don’t know why I’m holding back
I should just tell you how I’m feeling”

Blessed are people who can say exactly what they think…….because they will never know how it hurts to hold back.

“The more I brush it off
Tell myself it’s nothing at all
Deeper I fall”

Blessed are people who can let go with no strings attached….because they will never know how hard it is to hold on.

“And I imagine everyday
A thousand different ways
How you respond to what I say”

Happy are they who can let their dreams come true………because they will never have to wonder why they never did.

“Am I getting lost in my dreams?
Are you unreachable to me?
Cause these butterflies just won’t go away”

Blessed are they who can relish each moment of the feeling……..because they will never know what it feels like to fear it.

“But I don’t wanna act a fool
Don’t wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don’t know what you gonna do”

But most of all blessed are they who believe in it……..because they will never have to feel cut up for being a non believer.

So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I’m feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart”

Little Bird…

Are You Alright – Lucinda Williams

Three words you want to ask your friend……

“Are you all right?- All of a sudden you went away ”

Three words you want to say to someone you lost….

“Are you all right?- I hope you come back around someday”

Three words you want to ask someone you miss…..

“Are you all right? – I haven’t seen you in a real long time”

Three words to someone you wish you could see…..

“Are you all right?- Could you give me some kind of sign?”

Three words to describe regret…….

“Are you all right?- I looked around me and you were gone”

Three words to let some know you are worried sick….

“Are you all right?- I feel like there must be something wrong

Three words…..

“Are you all right?
Cause it seems like you disappeared”

Your Fears….
“Are you all right?- Cause I’ve been feeling a little scared”

Words you cannot ask…..

Are you sleeping through the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
Do you have someone to hang out with?
Do you have someone to hug & kiss you?

Your burden…..
“Are you all right?-  Is there something been bothering you?”

Things you wish you knew….

“Are you all right?- I wish you could give me a little clue”

Words you wish you could hear….

“Are you all right?- Is there something you want to say?”

Words that would put your mind to ease….

“Are you all right?- Just tell me that you are ok”

Your disappointment

“Are you all right?- Cause you took off without a word”

Three words….

“Are you all right?- You flew away like a little bird”

Three words that would make it ok…

“Are you all right?-Is there anything I can do?-Are you all right?”

Sometimes the three words you want to hear……

“Are you all right?
Cause I need to hear from U
Are you all right?”

It’s not so bad..

Toil and Trouble….

Thank you ~ Dido

Not the right song for how I am feeling today,,,,

But the right song to say we can always be hopeful….

I like Dido and she makes life easy for me…..well atleast the 3:46 mins while she is playing on my iPod.

I have a couple of drafts lying un-posted….

Just don’t feel like they convey anything at the moment…..

I am trying really hard to find the right words…..

Like they say let it come to you…..

Oh and it does……just like trouble….

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble…….like Ray whines…..

I have trouble and half a dozen of its army waiting outside my door …..

“My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I
Got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window,
And I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’d all be grey
Put your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad
It’s not so bad”

I could describe with all my might with  the usual clichéd philosophical crap*….hmm like

How do you react when the very ground that you are standing upon gets jerked off? (Nobody’s fault…)

Are you a fool for taking things for granted? (course you are…)

One min you are living your dream…..the next moment life happens……

But that doesn’t make the blow any less painful……

“I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there’ll be hell today
I’m late for work again
And even if I’m there, they’ll all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you call me and it’s not so bad”

And I can play it off saying “C’est La Vie Baby” but the truth is I am just numb…..or maybe just plain dumb……

I could do much worse…..infact I know I could……

No mouths to feed….or kids to clothe….. I could say I have had it easy…..

I told a friend yesterday I really ought to see a shrink…..half jokingly …..

Am gonna let Dido finish my happily ever after dream sequence to an epic but tragic post……

“Push the door,I’m home at last
And I’m soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel
And all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn’t have a clue
Because you’re near me”


Quater past three…

You Found Me ~ The Fray

Closed door….

Why? and Me?

Where? and Now?

What? and Do?

Will? and I?

“Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me“

Why’d you have to wait to find me, to find me?

An Utopian Citizen..

I should have known,,,…I should have known that I couldn’t stay without writing….

Denial,,,, I know I don’t make sense half the time…..and miss the point the other half…..

Wish You Were Here ~ Kate Voegele

I just realized that no matter where you are at in your life the temptation to stay away from your past or look back on what could have been is too much…….

“Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am a utopian citizen
Still convinced
There’s no such thing as idealism”

You need it as much to grow and grow out of it…..

Like breathing…….you don’t have to remind yourself….it just happens naturally…..

You slip in and out of it as if it was your second nature to contemplate on the past…….

It is a f**ked up theory I know…….but its true……

Why are we soo fixated? So stuck in the past that we console ourselves with the thoughts of the future not realizing the future was today!….It was today just like yesterday and just like tomorrow…….it was here…..

“Memories they’re following me like a shadow now
And I’m dreamin’
And I’ve already suffered the fever of disbelief”

The most frustrating part of it all……you spend your last 5-10 years looking back,…..unaware of the time that keeps passing by….which is a worry because sure as hell I don’t want to be here for the next five………

You know all the crap about dreaming……and living the dream……well forget it,…..you might try living life for a change,,,,,

“I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn’t soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I’m mesmerized by the picture that’s in my mind”

Where is the solution? what is the solution?I need to fix this desperately ….

When did life become soo saturated with all this s**t from the past?

I feel the world is closing all its door to me…..because I was too busy opening all these windows to a past……

“Tell me when I’ll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
‘Cause I don’t want to keep on believin’ in illusions”

Am I  living a double life?……wanting to belive in the a future filled with all the hope and the glory it brings along…… and at the same time butchering all the slightest possibilities of realizing  the truth of this reality ….

Am I the only one who has this all wrong?

“Sometimes I can’t explain
And I’m so sorry that I can’t
I’ll try to concentrate
On your true identity”

As I toss and turn in the darkness……disgusted by my inability to take on life….like taking a bull by its horns (Ah the cliché…)……I have never felt so hopelessly weak and lost……

What have I done?

Will I always chase after the perfect ending?

What am I talking about? there never will be an ending to this story……. there never was a beginning…….

It was all in my head…….I had it all in my head…..oh what have I done?

“I’ve seen your act
And I know all the facts
I’m still in love with who I wish you were

Don’t get me wrong I never once regretted it……

And I know for a fact that I never will….

It aint hard to see
Who you are underneath
I’m still in love with who I wish you were”

I wish you were here…

And I wish I was here………

Living  today……..

Silent Reverie..

It is Ghost town…..

I won’t be around for awhile to write…….its what they call “Mental Health Time Off” (The irony right?) only this time it is more than that……

I wish to write, I want to write about all of it……but its just not the right time though…..

It’s just not the time…..

Angel ~ Sarah McLachlan

“Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight”

Fear is hopeless……

The past week I have walked around feeling surreal….about all that has happened…

For first time in days I actually look into the mirror and feel as fragile as I look……

I wish I did not know it…….

It’s feels as if being permitted to lay down the burden today and say “I am tired”

I have imagined a dozen of scenarios with the worst case being true….

It is hard to be positive in times like these……

“So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees”

I think about people who have had it worse…….

how callous and insignificant my pity party seems in contrast…..

People who deal with all the realness in this world….

People who live to have that fighting chance……

People who make it through the day…….everyday….

How dare I complain?…….

“In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here”

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Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

It’s Only My World..

Another blue sky today….

It will wear out….. the fancy I mean…

It’s Only My World ~ Jae Joong

A splinter……

Jae’s voice is invincible as usual……before I make this post about the boy and his voice….I will stop here cause I can do him no justice…..

Even though the song is in korean…..poetry is poetry….

Here  is a rough english translation…….

“You tell me that I know very little about the world

With eyes showing a little worry, with a sorry smile”

I like to draw lines……lines that I don’t cross……lines I expect people never to cross….

Be it my personal space…..or be it my own emotional boundary…

There are ties I never will break……compromises I will never make…….and people I never can betray….

“Yeah, I guess I really don’t know the world

Maybe I walked this long way by myself”

I meet a lot of people who think I can easily be manipulated in thinking otherwise….

All the beliefs and values I have ……. can be easily bent by strangers who claim to know me or know my type….

That eventually I will come around,,,

I see no point arguing with people like that……I don’t like wasting my time……

“But I don’t have regrets,all the dreams with smiles or cries”

When it comes to relationships…..I have no maybe……or eventually in my dictionary……

If I did not feel it then…..there is no way I will not feel it now…..nor ever….

And for people who say “Oh you don’t know yet……..you wait…….you’ll see…….I will show you…..”

I will have them know I was not born yesterday…….

“But I don’t have regrets, finding and going through all my dreams”

There are no grey areas…….for me…..

I wish people did not push my limits……..

I maybe tolerant……but I am not ignorant……..

“I’ll tell you that you don’t know the world much”

If people did not figure that out about me by now……I am not going to hold my breath…..

“Yeah, I guess I really don’t know the world,

Maybe I’m all alone in this path .

But I don’t have regrets, the dreams that were so close

It’s only my world”